I have been pondering this since Sunday. I don't feel older, but, all of a sudden, my body is shaped differently. And, I don't like it. I guess I just don't want to admit that middle age is indeed here. It is true that I am a couple of pounds heavier than I was a month or two ago (but only a couple!), all my weight is sitting differently. And, like I said, I do not like it. I am growing a belly and a muffin top. WOW! Truly, I am coming to realize that my body will never be the same as it was. I guess I have always known that this would happen. I just thought that somehow I would FEEL older too. Nope. I think I am still 25 or something. No, I know I am not 25, but I don't really feel inside older than that. Yet, my next birthday will bring me to 40! What happened?
And, today I had an experience that made it real. I have a new friend that just recently moved into our ward. Yesterday, there was a huge area that lost power FOR HOURS (I did not know about this actually because I am not on Facebook any longer....but after yesterday I am reconsidering). Late last night, we discovered that one of the many families that lost power was this young couple and their 8 month old baby girl. We invited them to come sleep at our house where we had air conditioning. They did. It worked out perfectly because C is gone and his room is the "guest room" and Mom K left recently and so I'd just washed the guest sheets and towels. It took us minutes to prepare the guest room. I loved having them here, knowing that they were out of the heat finally. Yet, as much as I loved loved loved them being here, I did notice a difference. I have a 17 year old. I am closer to being old enough to be her mom than to be her peer. So, I have indeed aged.
The cool thing about this aging thing is seeing the multitudes of blessings I have received throughout my life. I have an amazing life. I love it! I feel my aging body. Whether MS fatigue or life fatigue or both, I am not as energetic as I once was, but my life is absolutely amazing!! I am blessed.
a beautiful Sunday
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