Thursday, October 22, 2015

What matters most

I just posted this on Instagram, but I wanted to remember it so I will blog about it also.

Sometimes in situations like this I find myself thinking about how much is not being accomplished.  But then I think about what IS being accomplished. I know these moments are fleeting. They already are. So, my arm hurts and my list is not getting accomplished, but my heart is happy because I get to cuddle my son this afternoon.

Sunday, October 11, 2015

General Conference - October 2015

Last weekend was General Conference.  What a spiritual recharge!!!  It, like always, was amazing.  I found answers to my questions and feel rejuvenated for the months to come.  I look forward to studying the words of the prophets throughout these months.

C had a band competition and was gone the entire day on Saturday.  We sure missed having him here.

It was fun to see how excited V was for General Conference.  She had no clue what it was, yet she was so excited and happy and could not wait for each session to begin.

During this conference, we had three new apostles sustained.  Over the last six months, President Packer, Elder Perry, and Elder Scott all passed away, leaving three vacancies to be filled.  I felt the Spirit testify that these new apostles were indeed called of God.  I am grateful for the Lord's plan in taking care of us.

Because I have had such issues publishing pictures to my blog, I am not going to add pictures this time, but I still want to document the things that we each noted.

So, in no particular order (other than this is the way they are placed around my room):

Elder Cook:
CK:  Righteous attitudes and conduct lead to happiness
Me:  Self-control is like a muscle - the more you use it, the stronger it gets
K:  Self- Control is necessary for progression and I'm expected to plan and prepare.
J:  Keep the sabbith (Sabbath) day holy.

Elder Bednar:
CK:  Physical limitations can help us prioritize our lives.
Me:  When you cannot do what you have always done, then you only do what matters most.
K:  Limited stamina clarifies priorities and We have these leaders in order to receive a sincere witness of Him.
J:  Pary (Perry), Scot (Scott), Pacer (Packer) and more had powerful infuints (influence).

President Eyring:
CK:  As we respond to the promptings of the Spirit, they will come more frequently.
Me:  Make a constant quest for the Spirit to be with us.
K:  Treat moments of inspiration like the seed of faith. and Confirmations of truth come through the Holy Ghost.
C:  Act on promptings.  Just do it.
J:  Holy Gost (Ghost) is awesome.

Elder Oaks:
CK:  The Savior knows and understands our pain and affliction because He experienced it.
Me:  Savior provides us with strength we need to overcome mortal challenges.
J:  Jesus helps you thro (through) trils (trials).

Elder Holland:
CK:  Nothing comes closer to the love of the Savior than the love of a mother.
Me:  Behold thy mother.
K:  There is no way we can understand the love of the Lord.
J:  Mothers are awesome, epeshily (especially) R______ K_______ (He put my name down!).

Elder Renlund (new apostle #3):
CK:  Our callings are about those we serve.  We must see them through God's eyes.
Me:  This calling is about the Lord, His work, and His children.
K:  Callings are about fulfilling the Lord's purpose.  and  Plead with God to have more love.
C:  We must see through Heavenly Father's eyes to have the true love of Christ.
J:  God is real.

Elder Hales:
CK:  Seek out and listen to wise counsel.  Prayerfully choose mentors.
Me:  Lord knows your desires and loves you and has a plan for you.
K:  Let yourself be led. and What can I strengthen in myself so I can strengthen others?
J:  Be careful who you date.

President Monson:
CK:  Speak with tolerance and kindness.  We will be different people because of our goodness.
Me:  We need to qualify to be lights to the world.  We will be different.
K:  Faith and doubt cannot exist together. and I will be different because I avoid degrading remarks.
C:  Be an example in actions and words.  Have charity.
J:  We are difrint (different) then people who are not in are (our) relishin (religion).  We need to set an example.

Elder Ballard:
CK: No one achieves exaltation without the Atonement and the teachings of the Gospel.
Me:  Lord's servants help us to avoid obstacles that are spiritually life threatening.
K:  Christ is waiting and willing to help.  and  God guides us in the way He has always done.

Elder Anderson:
He spoke in the priesthood session, so we did not do the stickies.

Elder Christofferson:
CK:  Members of the church should minister to each other on a day-to-day basis.
Me:  God's ultimate purpose in our progress.
K:  We are about a relationship too.  and We have a church in order to find conversion to Christ. and He has a church in order to work needful thing.
C:  God uses His church to bless you and people.

President Nelson:
CK:  The church needs women who will courageously defend the family.
Me:  Women have unique influence.  We need women.
K:  Speak up and Speak out in ward and stake councils.  and Know how to call upon God to protect others.  and  Women have been vital in every dispensation.
J:  Woman (Women) are loveing (loving).

Elder Rasband  (new apostle #1):
CK:  God loves us all in spite of our sins.  We need to reach out in love to all people.
Me:  He will serve the Lord with all of his heart, might, mind, and strength.
K:  Serve with everything you have.  and  Remember to be amazed by His love.
C:  Heavenly Father loves you no matter what.
J:  Folw (Follow) the profit (prophet).  Stay firm in the gosbol (gospel).

President Uchtdorf:
CK:  Focus on the simple truths of the Gospel.  Start where you are.
Me:  God did not give up on Moses.  He will not give up on us.  Even when we want to give up on ourselves.
K:  Sometimes you do have to re-learn things.
J: God does not give up.

Elder Stevenson (new apostle #2):
CK:  The fulness of the Gospel to be proclaimed by the weak.  The Gospel is pure and simple.
Me:  Our anchor is faith in Jesus Christ.
K:  The Gospel can be proclaimed by the weak.  and We live in perilous but fulness of times.
C:  The Father loves us because we are His children.
J:  Jusus (Jesus) is are (our) ancer (anchor).

Wow!  It is amazing to type these and feel the Spirit return to bear testimony of the truth that we were taught.  I am so grateful that we are able to gather our children together in our own home to sit at the feet of the apostles.

For me, without looking at my notes, the two things that stuck out to me are:
1)  My MS is such a blessing.  It allows me to focus on what matters most and not overdo it, because I cannot do more.  I think I will get to the other  side and find out that God gave this to me as a blessing, not as a trial.
2)  I need to progress by working on one small thing at a time.  Having a big checklist to improve doesn't work.  Ask "What lack I yet?"  and go forward with faith to work on that answer.  We don't have to be perfect all at once.  It is a progression.  All this I knew and believed, yet it resonated with me this conference.

I love this gospel.  I know it is true.  I know that Jesus Christ lives.  I want to become like Him.  I am a blessed woman!

Monday, October 5, 2015

A V-ism.

So I have not blogged in a long time. One of the reasons is I have 3 posts that it still says are saving but they never published.  After lots of work on these posts, that is very frustrating to me.

But, I do have something I want to document, so I will try again.

This morning, I was driving J to school and K was here with V.  This is the story that K reported to me.  V was running around crazy with lots of energy and so K asked her where she got her energy. Which store did she go to the get this energy.  She replied that she didn't go to any store, but that Heavenly Father and Jesus gave it to her.  Oh, the faith of a child. Touches my heart.

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Swim Lessons 2015

This week, J is doing swim lessons. Swimming has never been something he excels at. Last year he was in group swim lessons, with very little advancement. This year, we have a friend that volunteered to teach him. She is giving private lessons to a few people this year. Already in 2  half hour sessions, he is doing better than he ever has in the pool.  I am very proud of him.

As mentioned last night, we have a lot going on and having one more thing to drive to every day is a little bit of a challenge. In addition, I can't be out in the heat. I can feel it affecting my body, particularly my vision. Luckily, this summer is much milder than usual. Also, many of the symptoms I'm experiencing now are similar to the ones I experienced last summer. But last summer, I did not know why I felt the way I did. Understanding why is so much better this year.  Also, since I know what is going on, I can keep myself out of the heat and that helps significantly. Last year, I didn't understand that the heat was triggering my symptoms.

I'm very blessed to have helpful kids. K went with me and played in the splash pad with V while J was swimming.  and C stayed home with baby C.  I chose to get out of the air conditioned car and spend some time in the shade and with my cool towel. I definitely felt the effect still once it was over. Both of those things helped, but my body still felt it. Luckily, K has her permit and was driving. She is getting so good at driving.

I love the pictures of these two girls playing together in the pool. Looking at them helps me remember how very blessed I am.

On another note, I am blogging again. Fingers crossed I can keep it up. :-)

Monday, June 22, 2015

Tough times

Oh boy!  Life is hard. I don't have a picture or a special event that I'm going to post about tonight, but I am trying to make it a habit to post more often.

CK has had some job changes. It necessitates him travelling to work a minimum of 45 minutes each way every day. Needless to say, we are searching for a new job. He misses us. We miss him. And, with my MS, I cannot function very well in the summer heat. Overall,  I am doing quite well, but it is still challenging.

In addition, baby C is a screamer. He is very grumpy very often. I think it is a combination of not being able to talk and communicate very well, missing his dad who is gone, and teething.  We have a lot of sleep deprived nights right now. And very grumpy days.

But, the struggles that we are experiencing now are but a small moment. I have faith that at some point we will look back on this time and see the Lord's hand leading us to something even better.  I cannot see the better yet, but I know it will come. I am blessed.

Friday, June 19, 2015

General Conference April 2015

Wowzee!!!  I knew I was very very behind, but a month without any posting???????  Even I didn't realize it was that bad.  We have had baseball, the last day of school water fight, awards ceremonies, family parties , scout camp, day camp, girls camp, end of school, etc and etc and etc.  None of which is documented!  ugh!

Right now is probably not a good time to blog either.  I have two screaming toddlers.  One that I moved to a toddler bed today.  -sigh-  It is a challenge.  The other doesn't really talk yet, so he just screams and screams.  We have had a lot of difficulties in our family lately too.  Most of the time I handle them well, but some days I don't.  I know that trials refine us, but it isn't fun to be in the middle of them!

For today, I am finally going to finish the post from General Conference back at the beginning of April.  We had such a marvelous time with General Conference.  It was wonderful to have all six of my children together and we were able to gather them at our feet to hear the words of the prophets.  As is custom, we took stickies (each one with a different color) and wrote down what we noticed or what struck us from each talk.  I never finished documenting what was written in October Conference and I didn't want that to happen again, so the lovely faces of the prophets still grace our walls.  I was lovingly told today that it was time to take them down.  True.  It is more than time.  But, I want to document it, so I will.....crying babies and all.  We will stop and start again, but hopefully it will all be done by the end of the day.  :)

I am doing this in no particular order this year (just the order in which K took the pictures for me).

This is Elder Anderson:
CK:  "Learn to recognize the hand of God in our lives."
Me:  "Can you see the hand of God in your own life?"
K:  "Don't be casual in your faith." and "His message is everywhere and for everyone."
C: "As you keep the commandments, he will open your spiritual eyes even further."
A:  "The church has grown considerably."  and "God is mindfull  (mindful) of every people."
J:  "It is awesome when you get resretchin (resurrection)."
V liked to post too, but she just scribbled, so I have no idea what she was saying.  She is just learning the routine.  Good enough for a 2 year old for sure!
This is Elder Perry.  He actually has passed away since conference.  He will be missed.  He is a great man and the Spirit definitely was with him as he spoke.
CK:  "We must protect marriage and our families as the center of life and the key to happiness."
Me:  "We were and still are members of God's family.  Family is center of life and key to Eternal happiness."
K:  "Be a revolutionary:  go against the common pattern."  and "Families are the basic unit of eternity."
C:  "The family is eternal and important."
A:  "Marriage lasts forever."  and "Families will continue until eternity."

This is Elder Christofferson:
Me:  "Remember to have faith in promises to come if ideal is not here and now."
K:  "Protection of the family is not about convenience of adults."  and "the unideal can still have successes."  and "contribute to the divine plan."
C:  "The family is forever."
A:  "Marriage is forever and family can only be sustained by 2 people."
J:  "do not leisin (listen) to temptashn (temptation)."
This is Elder Cook:
Me:  "We can thrive and bloom if we are in the light of the Savior."
K:  "Wickedness creates vulnerability."  and "Perfect love of God = no contention."
C:  "The love of God in the home destroys contention."
A:  "We can bloom by following Christ's teachings."
J:  "Follow the Savior."
This is Elder Holland:
CK:  "God in His wisdom has a plan.  The fall and the atonement are crucial to that plan."
Me:  "Divine plan - creation, fall, atonement of Jesus Christ."
K:  "I cannot and will not fully comprehend the fall and the atonement."  and "this is not an existential exercise."
C:  "Jesus Christ did come and His atonement made up for the fall."
A:  "A hand will always stretch out to help when in need."
J:  "Hold to crist (Christ)."
This is Elder Bednar:
Me:  "Godly fear = reverence, respect, and awe for Jesus Christ.  Godly fear = beginning of knowledge."
K:  "Faith in Him hushes mortal fears."  and "Godly fear dispels mortal fears."
C:  "We should fear the Lord and we will be blessed."
A:  "Build your foundation on Christ."  and  "We can be blessed to hush our fear."
Elder Scott was ill and did not speak at this conference.   
This is President Eyring:
Me:  "Jesus wants us to succor others.  How can we do this?  Live the Law of the Fast."
K:  "Put away vanity"  and "Inspiration/revelation come from closeness to Him."  and "living the gospel brings the promised blessings."
A:  "How he told us that fasting is a blessing."
This is President Uchtdorf:
CK:  "Weakness can become strong by humility through the mercy of God." and "Living the Gospel isn't a burden, it is a joyful rehearsal for the next life."
Me:  "Salvation cannot be bought with the currency of obedience, but bought through the blood of Christ."
K:  "God loves us perfectly and everlastingly." and "Prayer is for confessing, pleading, and thanking." and "See the atonement with new eyes."
C:  "Christ saves us after all we can do, not because."
A:  "Because of the atoning sacrifice death has no sting and the grave has not won."
J:  "Crist (Christ) is Awesome."
This is Elder Hales:
CK:  "We are responsible for safeguarding religious liberty."
Me:  "We are responsible to safeguard religious freedoms for our posterity."  and "Blessings of agency."
K:  "I have the right to share my witness."
C:  "We have a responsibility to defend our beliefs and respect others belifs (beliefs)."
A:  "To keep the commandments, we need to know the doctrines of the church."  and "Freedom to believe."
J:  "You have aginsy (agency)."
This is Elder Oaks:
Me:  "Don't let cares of this world choke out the things of God."
K:  "I have to be willing to accidentally offend." and "Our job is to be leaven, but not to be digested."
C:  "Don't let the cares of the world drown out the word of God."
A:  "Do not let the internet overcome you."  and "Do not be spiritually sidated (sedated)."  and "Our commitment is supposed to be a test."
This is President Monson:
CK:  "Temple attendance will help us overcome temptations and bear our trials."
Me:  "Temples help us overcome temptations and bear trials."
K:  "Beauty and order and rest are found in temples." and "Follow His steps carefully."
C:  "Temples bring peace."
A:  "At the temple, we can find peace." and "We can be comforted at the temple."
This is Elder Ballard.  He spoke at the Priesthood Session, so we do not have family stickies for him this conference. 
This is Elder Nelson:
CK:  "Sabbath was made for man.  Take advantage of it."
Me:  "How can I make the Sabbath a delight?"
K:  "How will I change because of this conference?"
C:  "The Sabbath is God's gift to us."
A:  "God created the Sabbath for man.  And for us to spend family time on the Sabbath."
J:  "Cep (Keep) the sabithe (Sabbath) holy."

This is President Packer:
Me:  "If we truly repent, we bear no scars by accepting the Atonement of Jesus Christ."
K:  "Family is the great adventure of our lives."
A: "Through the righous (righteous) power, we can gain happiness." and "Every debt must be payed." and "The atonment (atonement) is individual."

So, actually it did take me two days, but I finished!  Yippee!  I have loved reading through the notes that we took the day of the conference.  C had a band competition, J had a baseball game, and CK was called upon to help a family in need.  So, we did not have everyone here for every talk.  But I felt the spirit with each note written by each person.  My kids, as well as CK and I, were bearing our testimonies as we commented on what we learned.  It is so cool.  I hope I come back and reread this often.  I hope my children will also.  There is power here.  I feel it.  I am so blessed.  I love the Lord, Jesus Christ.  Life isn't easy, but I have so much in which to rejoice!  :)