Friday, August 21, 2009

Lonely

I have been doing really well. I promise. I have many more "good" days than "bad." But, tonight, like most Fridays, I am alone. Usually, I am fine, but tonight the emptiness is very real. I guess because we are on the final countdown. As soon as DH and his attorney present our paperwork at the courthouse, it is done. Over. Done. Final. That could be this coming week or, at the latest, the next week. Funny, the only thing I remember our sealer saying at our sealing is, "Failure is not an option." He said it many times and I will always remember sitting there, glowing, next to DH, and hearing those words. I guess he was wrong. Failure is an option. And it hurts. It just plain hurts.

8 comments:

Jenny said...

YOU didn't fail.

the MILKY way (Chrissy) said...

Like Jenny said, you didn't fail. It wasn't your choice.

zeebee said...

I agree. and I love you.

nikko said...

You have not failed. You are still entitled to ALL of those blessings!!!

Amanda said...

Just like everyone else has commented-- it isn't YOU who failed. Maybe the sealer kept repeating that failure is not an option hoping/needing unknowningly to forwarn your DH of future decisions. Just a thought.

Robin said...

Its the pitts, but know that you have remained faithful is a good thing. It does not make the lonely nights go away. Hang in there.

Kathy said...

While life seems only to get harder in our Heavenly Fathers eyes it is just making the reward more wonderful!

Yvonne said...

I am so sorry that he failed you :(