Sunday, November 15, 2009

It was me

I just have to interject this post in the middle of all my catch-up posts.

As many of you know, last week we had Stake Conference. I went to the evening adult session on Saturday night. The second half really threw me for a loop....among the lowest of lows loop, including extreme discouragement, frustration, depression, and a feeling that I could not go on. Thank goodness I have loving friends and leaders that guided me quickly out of this loop and I have had a great week.

But, last night I reread my notes from the first half of that Saturday night session. This is some of what was said:
  • "If faith, fasting, and priesthood blessing doesn't heal you, Atonement will."
  • "When you are doing the Lord's work, your children are in His hands and His hands are always better than your hands."
  • "All that is unfair about life can be made right through the Atonement of Jesus Christ."

So, it was me. I had all the answers even before the pain started. It was me that turned away and allowed myself to feel that extreme anguish. He had already given me the answers. It was me.


txmommy said...

I miss you too, a lot.

Amanda said...

Funny how that is. This past week I've been discouraged too-- but for the first time in a long time is was because of my weaknesses. For so long it has always been Ryan's weaknesses I have focused on-- now it is time for my 'cleansing'. Great friends are priceless and help us pull us through. But the Savior is our true strength. Without Him-- we really can't get through our toughest trails--even with great friends.

Kathy said...

I was so glad we got to visit at the gym too. Your such a fun and amazing person to be around. After I got home I was wishing I had asked you how your Christmas projects are coming.

Just hang in there, if you ever want to talk you can always call me:)

The Tall and Short of it said...

Those friends/leaders will never stop calling and loving you. You KNOW that! Sometimes those friends/leaders may have to be forceful like calling at least 7 times in a row! I love you girl! =)

nikko said...

His talk was really powerful. I hope you got a copy of the talk he talked about. Truly life changing for me.

Sorry that it threw you for a loop. :o( Glad you're back on track!


AngeeBee said...

You are dong wonderfully! Your character and strength are inspiring! I am glad that as you looked back at your notes you realized that you were able to come away with what you needed - and others received what they needed.

That is one thing I love about the gospel - that the messages of true servants of God will (through the spirit) be able to customize themselves to our life experiences. Each child of God will receive what he or she needs.

At this time in your life - some things (of course) would have been difficult to hear - but others will touch your soul and continue to give you the strength and faith you need to do all that you are doing!

You are inspiring many more people than just your own children!