Sunday, December 13, 2009

Just when you think it can't get worse.....

......It does.

After all the health issues of this week, the drama with DH, and other dramas, this morning I was simultaneously sooooo ready to take the sacrament and so not wanting to even put forth the energy of going to church.

With much effort, I get the kids ready after DH drops them off (This is one thing I have to say about him.....he is flexible in letting them attend church 99% of the time. Kudos, DH!). We all get in the car and....it won't start. -sigh- It finally does and off to church we go....then K (who had been complaining of a stomach ache all morning) now says she thinks she is going to throw up. Oh, joy.

We get to church 13 minutes late. I park far away and reverse into my parking spot to make it easier if I need a jump after church and head in...barely making it for the sacrament in the foyer. Not exactly the quiet moments of reflection and peace I had envisioned.

What more could possibly go wrong?

Yet, what more could possibly be right?

In the midst of it all, Sacrament Meeting was amazing and the Spirit was so strong. I knew I was in the right place. Then, after dropping of the kids at DH's after church, I came home and watched a CES fireside from Elder Scott, given in 1999 (love the DVR!). It was just EXACTLY what I needed. Questions I'd had about my situation, DH, and where to go from here were all answered in the Lord's own way. Maybe I needed to feel so broken so I could be put together with the Lord's loving hands.

Thank-you for your thoughts and prayers. Keep them up. The rest of 2009 promises to still be difficult, but, for now...I am doing really well and, compared to yesterday, it feels sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good! :)

Addendum: I just had to document that we feel so loved tonight. Life was already 1,000,000% better than yesterday and to make it even better, we had an outpouring of love. We had carolers, doorbell ditchers, Relief Society presidency, and our dear Bishop and his wife all drop in on us just tonight. The Lord has taken care of us. He has shown his love through others and I am truly grateful. My support system has been immense and, I must admit, that while there are definitely times I feel so alone and abandoned, there are many more times that I feel so loved. Thank-you. Thank-you. Thank-you.

8 comments:

marcia@joyismygoal said...

:)

nikko said...

(((Hugs!)))

Natalie said...

Oh my dear, I just got back from Brussels and read your posts. I am sorry you have to go through such hard times. I think of you so often and we have you in our prayers. You are such a wonderful, pretty, smart, kind woman and many, many love you. Especially Heavenly Father loves you.
I love you. Hugs!

Kathy said...

we do love you! I wanted to give you and hug and say hi yesterday at church, but that is the down side to being Primary President, sometimes you dont have a minute to do things you want to, like say hi to a friend. But I do love u!

Li said...

Yay!!!

Suzanne said...

I'm glad you're feeling some peace! The Gospel truly can help us through our difficult moments. ***hugs***

victoria said...

I'm so sorry you are on this rollercoaster. So sorry for the crazy hard and painful experience this is. I hope and pray that each day will be a little easier for you.

ACK said...

So does DH mean Dumb Husband now?