Yep, here I am again...more journaling than posting pictures for posterity.
Being a mom of six means a lot of crying and screaming, at least at my house. Tonight was even more than most nights.
CK, K, and C are at the temple. A is in St. Louis. I was here tonight with J, V, and Little C. And...there was a lot of screaming. I think V and Little C are just exhausted. We had my nephew, E, here today. They had so much fun and it was awesome, but I think their little bodies were just worn out. In addition, we ate after CK, K, and C left so dinner was later. That didn't help.
Sometimes I truly wonder what I am doing being a mom at all, let alone to six kids. I love each of them so very much and my heart is overflowing with gratitude that I get to be their mom, but I still wonder if I am up to the task. At the same time, my heart aches that they are growing up. I am so proud of them and pleased with their choices in life, but the thought of them leaving home is already leaving a non-fillable void. I am trying to remember "The Best is Yet to Be." This means that as I lean on the Savior, the years in front of me will be amazing. Life with children-in-laws and grandkids will be glorious. I think I will always miss the littles at home, but I will also be grateful that I don't have nights of screaming sometimes. It is all up to me and my attitude.
I am currently downloading pictures to my computer. :) Maybe next post will be more fun!