Famous last words.
Actually, I have said those words over and over throughout the last three weeks. I just have to say that I feel so blessed. Within days of the divorce being final, a friend introduced me to "the perfect guy for me" in Georgia. Whatever. I would talk to him a little, I guess.
Little did I know what was coming. I planned to date a lot for at least 2-3 years. Could I ever really trust a man again? Would anyone that fits my high bar and share my same goals really be single? Not a chance. I was destined to be single forever, at least for a long time.
Again, famous last words. I do not know what the future holds for us, but I do know that for now I do not want to let this guy go. Honestly, if I had faxed up to Heavenly Father a list of qualities I wanted in a man, He doubled it when he sent M to me. I just feel so blessed and so taken care of by a loving Heavenly Father. No matter what else happens, I now know that good guys do still exist, that my standards aren't too high, and that Heavenly Father knows me. The rest of the future is all on faith.
It is a little difficult for me to let go of my "plans." It is difficult to think about how "fast" we have connected or the fact that we have a many-state distance barrier and kids in both places, but the future will tell how it all works out. What is crazy is that while we talk 2-4 hours a day on the phone, we haven't even met in person. 16 days for that! :) I can't wait.
I am so blessed and lucky and it was time to share....everyone has been with me for those tears full of heartache. Life is never perfect, but I am happy now by myself and also including M in a way that I never thought possible. :)
PS...if you are not a Facebooker, you don't know this yet: I really want that phrase on my tombstone when I die ('This was not in my plans')...it is so me (the planner) and it also just cracks me up to think of people walking by my grave and reading, "This was not in my plans." I am serious...if you are around when I die that is what I want on my tombstone! :)
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