Thursday, May 28, 2009

Hardest Day and Unexpected Angel

Today was the most difficult so far in this saga. The pain is almost unbearable. I just wish I could fast forward a year. I KNOW without any doubt or hesitation that I will be okay. That is not even a question in my mind. Yet, the pain is so great right now that I wish I could fast forward to when my heart will be healing, probably not healed, but healing. Life will be taking on a different routine, but it will be becoming "normal." I know that it probably won't be a bed of roses by any means. I know I will still ache, but I also know that fast forward a year and I will be more okay than I am tonight.

Yet, in Heavenly Father's loving way, I was still taken care of this evening. An unexpected angel dropped by my house. She is a friend, but we have never really had the opportunity to become close (but would be, I am sure, if we had had that chance): our kids are different ages, we have never worked together with callings, etc.. So, she was not whom I expected to see when my doorbell rang. Yet, there she was...carrying a pan of fresh hot cinnamon rolls...and bringing with her a smile, a hug, and great conversation. She had no way of knowing that minutes before I was on my bed in tears....ready to drown in the sorrow. I feel 97% better and it is all thanks to her. See how darn lucky I am? I am so blessed.


nikko said...

I waited for you to call me later in the day. I guess you got something else worked out.

Mmm... Cinnamon rolls!

Jenny said...

I'm so happy you have angels watching out for you.
You deserve it.

victoria said...

I'm glad there are so many good people so close to you that are answering your prayers. I'm so sorry you are going through this.

The Texas Bakers said...

I am so sorry for all this pain you are going thru. You really are loved by so many. And what could be better than cinnamon rolls?

utmommy said...

So sorry for everything that is happening in your life. Thank goodness for angels.

Yummy cinnamon rolls!

Suzanne said...

I'm so glad that your "angel" came to you that night!

You're right about time. I haven't had to endure the same heartbreaks as you, but I do know that with time, somehow things get better. Life is never the same, but the new normal becomes acceptable.

I've been thinking of you so much, R! You are in my prayers. ***hugs***