I am a little bit of a wreck and I know it is the hormones kicking into full gear. CK left this morning for business and to see A. Yikes! It has been a weepy day for me. I haven't felt this low since last October when CK was gone. That time was after we lost the first baby. That is how I know these tears are partially hormonal. Usually him leaving is sad, but not devastating. Today is hard.
Baby V is NOT helping. She has not slept more than 15-25 minutes at a time throughout the day. I have been up since 4 am. She usually sleeps for a few hours at a time, at least in the morning. Not today. I think she misses her daddy picking her up throughout the day. I know I do. But, I have handled a divorce and being a single mom. I can do this for five days and four nights...four kids and all. While V was screaming this morning, C helped with J. That was awesome. I appreciate him. It might be a long few days, but I am so blessed to have four kids that need me, a house to live in, and food to prepare. I am truly blessed beyond measure.
When the older three get home from school, we have piano, grocery shopping, going to the library, and taking dinner to a new friend that just had a baby. I think that being busy will be good for us all. And maybe, just maybe, V will sleep well throughout the night and we will all have a better day tomorrow. :) CK usually gets up with her to calm her quite a few times in the night....her sleeping well for me would definitely be a blessing.
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