Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Another Funeral

I am in charge of another funeral luncheon for 100 people. Crazy. How awesome, though, to see all the service people are willing to do on a moment's notice. That is the blessing of my calling.

This one sure has touched me as it is another untimely death and she was a woman so close to my age. The worst part is that she leaves a beautiful 10-year-old motherless. This also strikes close to home, as K will turn 9 in a couple of months. My heart aches for the little girl. I know that Heavenly Father will comfort her and that time will lessen the pain, but, oh, how it must hurt right now.

One thing it has done is make me really want to have my "houses" in order. I want to be spiritually on the right path when called home. I want to have the finances for both our business and our home neatly organized with explanations so that DH or someone else could take over if needed. I want my home to be organized so that someone else doesn't have to sort out all my junk. I want the kids' to be fully aware of how much I love them...that if anything happened to me that they'd have many fond memories of a mom that loved them, not a mom that was so busy with the home, the business, the yard, church, etc...that she didn't have time for them.

The fragility of life has just been so evident lately. Besides this funeral, we have another sister that could've potentially had a fatal illness (preliminary tests are good, though! :) ). It reminds me that I am not invincible and I need to be ready at any time. Good lessons to learn.


Chel said...

Death scares me sometimes and I think that it may scare me because I am not ready to die. I loved the paragraph that talked about being "ready" to be called home at any time-- I don't think I am ready and that is why death scares me. I feel like I have so much to do and organize (and I am always busy and a very organized person- so that feeling is strange to me). But it's more just the simple things like you explained.

Anyway, definitely good lessons learned. How sad for that 10 year old little girl.

Joyismygoal said...

you may not be invincible but you are awesome

I have a good life said...

You are right. I am not scared of dying for myself. I am scared for who and what I leave behind.

Joanne Brown said...

I've also been thinking about the fragility of life recently as my friend (she's only 32!!) at church lost her husband very very suddenly on Friday night. He was only in his late 30's. They have twin boys who are 5 and a little girl who is 2. So sad!!! And I've also had news of the death of 2 other young men I know this weekend, again both in their 30's. It's really scary! It certainly makes you think of the important things in life and makes me determined to get my priorities right!! I hope that all your arrangements for the funeral lunch go well! Sounds like you will have lots of support.

Jan said...

I am feeling exactly the same way right now. Our life is fragile. We need to recognize and appreciate each moment we have together. I think your right about the dying part, its who we leave behind. So glad we have the Plan of Salvation. That is hopeful. I reread the Proclamation and that is where Hope lies too. Thanks.

The Ballard Family said...

That is heart breaking! We hope and pray all will work out for her daughter. The family is blessed to be surrounded by a wonderful ward and people who desire to serve the Lord and share their blessings with those who face difficulties. We miss you all!