"It isn't what you have,
or who you are,
or where you are,
or what you are doing that makes you happy or unhappy.
It is what you think about."
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Here I am again. Same song. Same dance. Same place. Same hurts. Will I ever stop hurting? What is it with me and the men I've loved. Why can't we ever get the same answers? Now, it is my turn for the "no." Again. As I spent time in the temple today, the answers came clearly. Not CK. Not now. Maybe not ever. I don't know, but I know that my tear ducts still work. What I thought were my future plans are now shattered. I think I have been slow to listen and the Lord has been patient with me to tell me again. It still hurts. -sigh- "The best is yet to be. Look ahead and remember that faith is always pointed to the future." ~Elder Jeffrey R. Holland (Repeat to self over and over...until it sinks in.)
I am a happily married LDS SAHM of six kids (17-year-old girl, 15-year-old boy, 12 year-old girl, 9-year-old boy, a 3-year-old girl, and a 2-year-old boy). I love life. I am truly blessed to know my Savior, Jesus Christ. I desire to spend my whole life in service to Him. I love my children with all my heart and dedicate myself to being the best Mommy I can be...it is a daily challenge, but one I cherish.