Okay....I realized that this title might make you wonder if all is well with V and with me and with our family. Yep. All is great! The only struggles of today have come with frustrations: internet issues, a lost camera charger, and a cranky baby. Nothing major. Life is good.
But, that wasn't always the case. If you read my blog, you know that life did not turn out the way I planned. I went through times of great sorrow and struggle.
This morning, I was listening to one of my Hilary Weeks CDs. On there is a song entitled, "Just Let Me Cry." Oh, the memories that this song brings back. I heard her once speak regarding the inspiration for this song: it was for a friend that lost a young child, 8 years old or so. I didn't have that trial, but I did lose a husband.
I have a very poignant memory that includes this song. One of my angels (and best friends), A, and I had gone to the temple the night before I was to be at divorce mediation. We stopped at a gas station on the way home and this song came on my CD player. We sat and cried together. It is a moment I will never forget for the words of this song capture that feeling so well--resolve that the future will be better and that there is nothing that anyone can do---it just is painful for now.
I am glad I have been blessed to retain this memory. While my eyes tear up at the memory, I feel the great love of my Savior and His arms around me at this time. I feel the great blessing that A was in my life. I am so glad that it was to the temple that I turned for strength before the struggles. I have been blessed beyond measure. I have been through some crappy times, but each step of the way held blessings for me. I now can weep with joy rather than heartache. I am so blessed.
(P.S....V's ultrasound results came in today: normal. :) I think she is growing. Tomorrow is a weight check! We will see then.)
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